A sadness sinks deep into my being as i write this post.
I have no idea where to start from. I think the best start would be by quoting a friend. When asked what the height of materialism is, he promptly replied-'' being human'' !!
N how true is that!! Being human is to feel..being human is to have hopes and expectations...being human is to want love n affection n care. And isn't that much more materialistic than wanting money n all other luxuries??!! Afterall, love is the most sought after drug n the most rarely found one too!
So, i sit back to contemplate whether being human is really worth it or not! Being human requires me to fight back pain and I am not really in the mood for that.
I decide to close my eyes and let things take their own place in my life. Off late, my intrusion in life's working had increased beyond lethal quantities. And hence, i decide to take a break. Like an ostrich , i'll bury my head deep into sand and although, i am aware that a storm is brewing outside, i will pretend that everything is ok. Maybe, when I poke my head out, the storm is really over and everything is really ok. I prepare myself to let the worst nightmares come true and i will live through them. Running away from them didn't help. Maybe, living them will. This is one of my latest strategies in the struggle for survival (Darwin sure didn't know that the struggle for survival is much more complicated than as his laws say! ).
And I call this strategy - Leap of Faith.
